When the cat’s away … the mice

panic. Or at least this one does … LOL.

The web department for my new employer consists of 2 people … me and Justin (my former boss and now supervisor). Justin out on vacation all week. That means that I’m in charge of the websites. If something blows up … I’ve gotta fix it.

Today has gone okay so far. Nothing has blown up (yet). But I’ve had to sort though a bunch of requests/fixes from my boss on various things. Most have all been with one aspect of the website. And most have been small changes. But there are a bunch. I feel like I’ve got ADD. Trying to sort through things and prioritize and get them done. I’m not sure how Justin does that and still is able to answer my questions and get stuff of his own done.

I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself this week. I CAN’T mess up. The fact that Justin felt that I could handle things while he was gone for a week does feel good … that he trusts me like that. But that means pressure to not screw up … to fix issues as quickly as humanly possible. I feel like I have to prove myself though. That I can handle things. I feel like if I can’t, there’s no reason to keep me on.

I’m trying not to freak out. I’m taking things one at a time … doing the little things and getting them published. Working on the urgent and ASAP items before the other items. I’m also keeping an eye on the server error log to catch any issues as they crop up. So I do have a handle on things … or at least so far I do.

But I’ve only put 4 hours behind me. There’s still the rest of the week to live through. I know … I just know that something is gonna go wrong. And when it does, I’m gonna freak. I’m gonna screw up. I’m gonna lose my job. Boy … aren’t I the eternal optimist … LOL. Hopefully that is all just nerves, and everything will work out okay. But that remains to be seen. I’m gonna be on pins and needles all week. Hopefully I’ll still be around at the end of it …