Becky: You Deserve It, Dammit!

I suffer from Imposter Syndrome. I also suffer from Asshole Brain Syndrome™. I am my own worst enemy. 

Earlier this year, I was working out on a regular basis and eating right. I was actually starting to feel good. Not necessarily happy, but good nonetheless.

At some point, something happened and I stopped working out as much, and then not at all. I stopped cooking meals and just started heating up something in the microwave. My jeans are now feeling tighter again. I hate how I look. I never have any energy to do anything, let alone work out. I hate going to work. I barely even touch my computer in the evenings or on the weekends. I don’t feel like I deserve to be happy.  I don’t know what triggered things, but I’m right back where I started.

AND I DON’T LIKE IT!

I’ve decided that it’s time for me to commit to myself. To get back to where I was at the end of this summer and keep moving toward my end goal … to surpass it. Despite what my asshole brain tells me, I FRICKIN’ DESERVE IT DAMMIT!

  1. I deserve to be happy.
  2. I deserve to be healthy.
  3. I deserve to enjoy developing websites again.
  4. I deserve to not dread going to work.
  5. I deserve to be appreciated.
  6. I deserve to go out of the house and DO THINGS IN PUBLIC.
  7. I deserve to have friends.
  8. I deserve a man who accepts me for who I am.
  9. I deserve to LIVE my life!

It’s time to tell my asshole brain to “fuck off”. It’s time to believe in myself again. It’s time to be my own best friend.