I suffer from Imposter Syndrome. I also suffer from Asshole Brain Syndrome™. I am my own worst enemy.
Earlier this year, I was working out on a regular basis and eating right. I was actually starting to feel good. Not necessarily happy, but good nonetheless.
At some point, something happened and I stopped working out as much, and then not at all. I stopped cooking meals and just started heating up something in the microwave. My jeans are now feeling tighter again. I hate how I look. I never have any energy to do anything, let alone work out. I hate going to work. I barely even touch my computer in the evenings or on the weekends. I don’t feel like I deserve to be happy. I don’t know what triggered things, but I’m right back where I started.
AND I DON’T LIKE IT!
I’ve decided that it’s time for me to commit to myself. To get back to where I was at the end of this summer and keep moving toward my end goal … to surpass it. Despite what my asshole brain tells me, I FRICKIN’ DESERVE IT DAMMIT!
- I deserve to be happy.
- I deserve to be healthy.
- I deserve to enjoy developing websites again.
- I deserve to not dread going to work.
- I deserve to be appreciated.
- I deserve to go out of the house and DO THINGS IN PUBLIC.
- I deserve to have friends.
- I deserve a man who accepts me for who I am.
- I deserve to LIVE my life!
It’s time to tell my asshole brain to “fuck off”. It’s time to believe in myself again. It’s time to be my own best friend.